18/ 05/ 17
Recently, I have been going through a rough patch both mentally and emotionally. Getting through these last couple of weeks at school has been completely draining. And it hasn’t even been because of finals or exams! More from the lack thereof. And In the last month, both my laptop AND phone decided to just stop working. You’re probably thinking, “Really Abbey, you’re stressed about NOT having finals and that you can’t check Instagram?!?! Things could be SO much worse!” And yes, they could be. However, as a teenager in 2017 I completely rely on these two chunks of metal to do pretty much everything from checking my emails, doing my schoolwork, and staying on track with my bible study. Also, I’ve been praying for God to use me to start some kind of organization locally so that I can help others and to share His love, but without my trusty Macbook or iPhone there is no way for me to research the need in my community or to get in contact with the people that I need to get into contact with that could help me! When I am doing nothing, I feel like I am not pursuing my purpose. I start to fear complacency. I let it linger in my mind and the longer this fear builds up in my mind, the more irritable and impatient I become towards others and towards myself. So on my way home from dinner, out of complete frustration I just began to pray. And what I love most about having this blog is that whenever I cry out to God in times of anguish, I feel Him telling me to write a post about what I am going through so that it might help someone else who is feeling the same things as I am. So if you are feeling underwhelmed and at the cost of such, completely overwhelmed, this post is for you!!
Whenever we are going through times when we feel unproductive, we have to be patient. As Christians, the hardest seasons that we will ever go through are seasons of waiting. Nobody, likes to wait. (Let’s be real for a second: has anybody ever been completely in a state of joy and patience waiting for their random Amazon find or huge Forever21 haul, to come in the mail… NO!!!) But by waiting, we are forced to completely rely on God, and by doing so, our sense of both trust and faith in Him will be made stronger. Proverbs 3:5-6 states that we should not lean on our own understanding but we should rely on Him and our paths will become straight. There is nothing in this world that we can get done effectively without the help of God. So we might as well, sit back and get comfortable while we wait for Jesus to help us along in this journey called life.
We also have to be persistent in our vacant time. Just because we feel like God isn’t using us in the moment doesn’t mean that we stop reading our Bible, worshipping, and praying. I shouldn’t be one to talk, I haven’t been to church on a Wednesday night for the past three weeks! I’ve been too caught up in feeling sorry for myself that I’ve refused to build up the energy to go. When in reality, that is where I should’ve been in order to seek the help and productivity I desired in growing closer to the Lord, instead of in my bed watching Keeping Up with the Kardashians (even if it was part two of the Costa Rica vacation episode). Pull out your Bible or Bible app and read Psalm 120:1-7. In this scripture, David writes about an Israelite who is completely miserable with where he’s at in life. He’s surrounded by evil people. However, he has his mind set on getting to Jerusalem, the Holy land, in hopes of living a life in which his relationship with Christ can flourish. We too must be like this Israelite. In that we must refuse to conform to the negative world around us and have the motivation to relentlessly pursue a relationship with God. We can not give up!. We must persevere.
Lastly, when we feel completely useless in where we’re at in life, we must allow ourselves to be blanketed in God’s never ending grace. Besides love, grace is my second favorite term that is used and displayed in the Bible. Just thinking about the Lord’s crazy admiration for each and every one of us never fails to put a smile on my face. Corinthians 12:9 says, “But He said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” Did you get that? His power is made PERFECT in our weakness! When we are sitting around feeling absolutely worthless, God is sitting in heaven making the next season of our lives worthwhile! The dictionary definition of ‘grace’ in Christian belief is, ‘The free and unmerited favor of God, as manifested in the salvation of sinners and the bestowal of blessing’. God favors us and is not going to let us live a life without purpose. By going through this period of “boredom” He is bestowing upon us rest for the endeavors that are coming ahead. He is showering us with unconditional grace, we need only to receive it!
I want whoever is reading this to know that I am praying for you. I am praying for a radical transformation in your situation and that you have the motivation and perseverance to get through this season.
Romans 12:12 “Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.”
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